Thursday, December 31, 2009

A Backward Glance and a Forward Gaze

"Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise."

I've been thinking about 2009 this week and recounting all that has us, to our families, to our friends, to our church family. There have been bubbly joys as well as torrential sorrows. But all has been sacred. Everything is sacred, I'm learning. Even the seemingly smallest of things in a day, like making homemade pizzas or rolling a ball on the ground. Even the hardest moments are sacred.

This year I've witnessed baptisms, read more scripture than I have collectively in my life, deepened old friendships, made surprising new friendships, met complete strangers on aisles that later became friends, shared deep thoughts with close friends in our home and theirs, learned how to take better pictures, watched my children grow and start talking in full sentences, helped my son graduate from speech therapy, experienced the power and security in praying with my husband early in the morning, watched my husband grow into a completely different man--for the better (spiritually and over all), learned how to pray more passionately, learned (and still am learning) to prioritize my life as Christ calls me to, welcomed a new baby of some of our best friends, met new blog friends, walked some of the darkest hours out with a dear friend and watched Christ transform her life, created actual flower beds!, dug a french drain, mowed an ungodly amount of grass, painted a mural on a bedroom wall, rearranged furniture, took my kids through the drive-thru on a bike, ran who knows how many miles chasing 2 children around the yard and the house, and finally, I've learned that we will be adding another child to our family.

Thinking about 2010 is exciting. I'm nervous about some things that I fear could happen, I'm giddy about some things that I pray the Lord will allow to happen, and I'm just in awe that He has created it to be so. Life, no matter how you view it, is a gift from Him. The simple fact that I am here for another New Year is grace enough.

Here are some things I want most desperately for my life and for my family's life in 2010.
1. Deeper desire to know Christ and walk with Him, aligning my will with His.
2. Health (who doesn't?), but I also want to walk in the faith that whatever God has in store for us, I will turn back to praise Him.
3. Stronger marriage.
4. More patience with my children and a deeper understanding that they are one of the most beautiful ways God shows His love and grace for me.
5. Less worry.
6. Healthy pregnancy and new baby.
7. Joy in ALL circumstances.
8. Richer appreciation for the mistakenly mundane.
9. Fuller friendships.
10. Less selfishness; more giving.
11. Getting to know family better (more shopping with my mom, etc.).

I could come up with a list of about a hundred things! I'm looking forward to the Lord's teaching and provision and grace and mercy this coming year. And I'm so thankful He loves me enough to give them.

Peace of Christ to you,


  1. WOW! THat is BIG news, and what a great way to share it as you look toward what the new year will bring to your life and to your family! Blessings in this new year!

  2. Wow! Brilliant news Cara!
    What a lovely way to start the New Year. I wish you well over the coming months. It will be do much fun following the progress of your bump through your blog.