Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Do you ever wonder if God is listening? And if so, does He really care?

I feel like for the past (almost full year), I've asked God what He is trying to say to us in a certain situation...

and all I hear is silence.

Deep, long, tormenting SILENCE.

Have we missed God on decisions we made?
Did He try to warn us, and we disregarded His Word?
Why does it get worse instead of better?
Is He stepping back and allowing us to be sifted?

The more we ask, the less we hear.

Of course, things can always be worse, and we know that. We have sat together and looked for the positive points in it--to find the reasons it WAS God's leading. Either way, the question still sits heavy: What now?

I don't mean for this to be a whine session; I just don't want to be fake. I know many of you who read my blog actually pray for our family, and since we need those prayers and since we believe it works, it only makes sense to tell you what kind of prayer we need.

We need direction.
We need confirmation through God's Word--which is living and active and useful for teaching and directing and shaping and...we believe it.

I know whom I have believed and am convinced that He is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted to Him (2 Timothy 1:12).

We do know that God is sovereign, and He sees what we cannot. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Peace of Christ to you,


  1. Oh yeah, the "Silence," it makes decisions sooooo hard. There are many times I have had to make a decision without being clear on the direction God wanted me to go. In those times when I want to get frustrated I have to remind myself that He looks at my heart and He knows that my hearts true desire is to do His will.

  2. Sometimes when your prayers aren't answered straight away it can be hard.

    I think God is like a parent not always stepping in to fix their kids problems. The kids are left with having to sort things out themselves not knowing if they are making the right choices but they are watched over by someone with more knowledge, more experience.

    I think sometimes our prayers are answered when we truly need them. We are being watched over every day, we just sometimes can't see it.

    Today I took some time out to stop and light candles for a few people I know that are in need of a prayer right now. I want you to know that one of them was for you.

  3. Gina, I'm completely humbled at your kindness toward someone on the other side of the world. Wow, thank you so much for this! There's just something about knowing others are praying on your behalf that is so hopeful, so uplifting.

    Thank you for uplifting me this morning as I read this.

  4. You are very very welcome. A prayer costs nothing but a few minutes of time. It was probably reading your blog post that made me walk past my car that morning and into the church. I haven't lit candles by myself for a very long time. I usually only do it when the kids are with me. Isn't it funny how you are having an impact on me and then hopefully in turn you get something good from it too. I hope you are having a great weekend