Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Little Did We Know...

Ever heard of Adonijah and King David? I came across the story in 1 Kings chapter 1, and I'm stunned at how much it relates to our story right now. Read it if you'd like, and you'll see what I'm talking about. Adonijah had himself a plan. It sounded good to others. It may not have hurt anyone...at least not immediately. He thought he would make himself King.

Little did he know...

I'm just 26 years into this life, and if I've learned nothing else, I have learned that learning is hard. Know what I mean?

Matt has been working a certain job for about 6 months, and it's really been the hardest 6 months on our family for various reasons--mostly time away from each other. Very recently, it began to look impossible, like something we could not endure for much longer at all. To sum up a fairly long story, Matt had worked at a company for 3 years where he got to do something he very much loves--video--but the pay was not high, and it wasn't going to get much better. The commute was long, and if you've seen our gas prices...well, you know. So, he left.

That brings us to the here and now...where we were panicking about whether we'd made a monumental mistake in our lives and whether a repair was even possible. He had been told that he could have his job back if the new one wasn't working out. So, we thought we'd give that a shot. Honestly, I guess I didn't really expect the answer we got. And that's why it hit me so hard.

Little did we know...

Our economy is in a recession, for anyone who's been living under a rock. Guess what part of businesses no longer becomes a "necessity" in a recession. That's right. Video. If you know Dave Ramsey, he'd say it's been moved below the line. Way below.

So, there simply isn't enough work for Matt to be hired back on as a video production editor. I'd like to insert that he is exceptionally talented in this field, and I deeply miss seeing him use his creativity and design. And the market around here simply won't support much free lancing in this field.

I have to be honest and admit that I cried when our hopes of returning to the old job were snuffed out. The hours were pretty regular, and I was looking forward to having my husband back home more often, seeing the kids with their daddy more. Who knows--maybe I'd have a reason to cook dinner again!

Okay, I cried a lot.

But Matt took it really well. I'm so glad he did, because I needed to hear what he had to say about it. God showed him (fairly quickly) that He was indeed in control, and this was a raw, true-to-life example of His sovereignty. Remember what I said about our economy? Well, what if Matt had stayed there while the company brought in less and less business (which it has)? Although he had been there over 3 years, he still was the last guy hired, so...you get the idea.

Where would we have been then?

God knew. When we didn't, God knew. While I still don't know, He does. And even though this is not the easiest stretch our lives have encountered, it's still easier than many, many other people's roads. I'm hearing a hymn dance around in my head right now: "Count your blessings, name them one by one. Count your blessings, see what God has done."

Now that I can stop and actually look at the situation, what I see humbles me...and it amazes me that God loves us this much. That He doesn't give us everything we want and think we need. That God can and does use people who don't even know Him or serve Him in order to work in His children's lives is, well...astounding. This is God's sovereignty at its loudest for me. So maybe we didn't make the "mistake" we thought we had. Maybe this was all part of the plan. Maybe we're learning something we never would've been afforded had we not stepped out of the other job that was comfortable. Maybe we needed to be shaped, molded.

I'm not sure into what, but you guessed it: God does.

Peace of Christ to you,
Cara