Thursday, August 28, 2008

The C Word

I was talking with my friend Fallon earlier about "Confession." I don't know about you, but when I hear this word, I cringe.

It's scary. It's overwhelming. It's too personal. It's risky. It's...HONEST.

After the conversation, I sat and looked at the specific places the Bible points toward "confession." There are different types of confessions: There is the confession of sins to God for forgiveness, there is the confession of Christ as Lord with our mouths, and there is the confession of sins to others. Of course, the latter is the most intimidating (to me, anyway). I usually want to appear as if I have things together, like I am generally a good person. Confession is a great way to shatter these selfish motives and misconceptions of our faith. For me, confession is a good way of keeping me humble.

Of course, the most important confessions we do are our admissions of sin to God.
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).

For me, these times of confession ensure my honesty with God and also keep the lines of communication open. Once the air is cleared, so to speak, my relationship with God can go so much deeper. I suddenly am not focusing on myself, but am free to petition for others' needs. (This, by the way, is a great avenue to humility, too.)

"Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed" (James 5:16).

This is the same guy who said we should look at trials as joy! Why? Because these times test our faith, which in turn gives us steadfastness, or perseverance. I think everyone would agree that we desire perseverance. But are we truly willing to endure what it takes to develop such a gift?

I then read a very personal confession from Paul:
"For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing" (Romans 7:18-19).

I have written these exact thoughts countless times. I daily, no hourly, struggle with the war within to do God's Will. My flesh wants to do what will benefit itself--certainly not what will benefit others. I am amazed at how quickly I can go from handing my whole heart over to our God, to scratching and clawing to have it back. "But I want ____" and "It's easier to do____" constantly pluck at my insides. I want to make my Lord proud of me, but it's such a struggle. I want to hear "Cara, well done, faithful servant," when I meet Him. But will I?

This is my confession.

What's yours?

All scripture taken from:
English Standard Version (ESV) Copyright © 2001 by Crossway Bibles.


<>< Cara

3 comments:

  1. wow definitly that is such a hard thing to do, I know that I don't want other people to know where I screw up all the time.

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  2. Good stuff Cara. I think confessing our sins to God and others is necessary to maintain accountability. It is crucially important to our realtionship with Christ. I borrowed that book from Trent, and so far it's not heretical. It just has a differnt persepctive. I hope I didn't scare you into thinking I was turning into some sort of charismatic. =)

    This is what I was reading to you the other day.

    "We don't have to confess our sins in order to be forgiven, we confess our sins because we are already forgiven. .....................Forgiveness is not dependent on what I do, but on what Jesus has done. So confession in the new covenant is just being honest about your failures and your humanity. It is the result of being forgiven and not something you do in order to be forgiven."

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  3. It is easy to just want to give up sometimes. We look at what the bible says about being holy and then we look at what we have and think what is the use. I'll never get there so why try. I mess up evryday, throughout the entire day. At times I am frustrated by it, but at times I just don't care. When all is said and done though I come back to one thing. Grace. Without the grace of a loving caring God I could not make it. I can't be evrything that the bible says I must be in order to have my own holiness. So I must depend on the holiness of Christ. Because of Him I can get up each morning and go through out the day without eating a gun. So in all of this what am I saying. We do the best we can do, make no excuses, and depend on The Lord Jesus Christ to forgive us when we come before him as a child who has once again lost his way. Confession is to me deciding that I will not pretend to be something that I am not to my famiy, my friends, and the world.

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